Infertility is a silent killer that eats away at your soul if you don’t release it. So I chose to be vulnerable and write about it, exposing every emotion and thought.
That being said, if you have read my past blogs you already know that I am very open and raw on this topic!
Why other women don’t talk about it? Because it’s hard. It’s hard to be real in a social media world where we are expected to only show the pretty and perfectly posed parts of our life.
I know longer despise baby showers though I still find them boring. I also don’t cringe at pregnancy announcements as much as before.
Exactly a year ago we were told that we would not be able to naturally have children unless we went through invitro fertilization or adoption. Since then it has been a journey of faith and trust. I struggled so much with bitterness and questions of “why” but I can now look back and see how God has been molding me as a person and working on my marriage as well.
When we were given the bad news we knew there was no way we would be able to afford the in vitro procedure or adoption so we just had to let it go and accepts the facts.
However, God gave me a scripture and a promise that he would make a way for us. I didn’t know how or when but I knew that he was able.
“Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.” Isaiah 43:18-19
A few months ago one of our friends contacted us to let us know that they were going to do IVF in Mexico. At first I was like HECK NO but then after thinking about it I knew that this was a very wise couple and they wouldn’t do anything that would put their life in danger. So we set out to go meet the doctor with them with the plan to do IVF.
When we got there we were shocked to find out that a small fibroid that I had was gone and Davids “gold mine” had gone from 20% to 70%! The Doctor told us that we would not need IVF and could do IUI instead which is much more affordable and less painful.
And so our journey to become parents began…
Part 2 coming soon!